I can’t believe our anniversary has come up so quickly. It feels like just yesterday I was still fiendishly collecting books for everyone’s personalised gift. There have been so many life-changes this past year and for the most part, all of them have been pretty great. A few weeks ago, Sam and I were walking along the streets of York when he piped up with, “Our life is pretty great, isn’t it?”. As a pessimist it’s hard for me to admit, but yes, yes it is.
When I close my eyes, I can still feel the excitement of last July bubble up inside of me. It’s such a ridiculous cliche, but our wedding day really was one of the happiest days of my life. There are some real standout moments that I know that I’ll never forget:
- Giggling and eating chocolate in bed with my Maid of Honour whilst watching “Bridesmaids” much, much later than was suggested for so-called “beauty sleep” the night before.
- Absolutely weeping as my bridesmaids surprised me with letters that they had all written to me. They then proceeded to read them aloud as I was getting ready. I even got a letter read to me over Skype by one of my bridesmaid’s who wasn’t able to make it over to England from the States.
- Walking down the aisle to Bob Dylan’s “Shelter from the Storm” and being in such an out-of-body frame of mind that I couldn’t physically hear or feel anything.
- Seeing Sam smile at the top of the aisle when I finally saw him that morning. And when he had to inevitably wipe away a tear that I shed when I cried my way through my vows.
- Listening to our friends read our wedding readings of: Phillip Larkin’s “Solar”; an excerpt from Phillip Pullman’s “His Dark Materials”; and Carol Ann Duffy’s “Rings”.
- Having confetti stuck to me all day long and smiling so much that my face hurt.
- Hiding in a closet at the village hall with Sam as he sprayed me with his deodorant and cologne once I realised that I had been in such a fluttery, excitable state when I left the hotel that I had forgotten both deodorant and perfume.
- My maid of honour, Sam’s and his brothers speeches all being heart-warming, tear-jerking, hilarious speeches. So many people have since told me that we had the best collection of wedding speeches that they’ve ever heard, and I’m totally biased, but I definitely agree!
- Dancing our first dance to Josh Ritter’s “Wait for Love”.
- Playing an epic, entire guest-list game of flip cup outside in the dusk.
- Sam and I holding hands in the taxi going back to the hotel before promptly falling asleep the second we got in.
But the real hero of this post (despite my narcissistic self-reflection) is Sam. I always tell people that I didn’t really find wedding planning or the big day stressful at all. And that’s because Sam took such a vested interest in making sure that the stress was off of me and that I just felt loved and excited the whole weekend.
Here’s a secret about Sam. He hates bragging about himself and always thinks he has nothing interesting to say about himself because he refuses to big himself up. But he’s one of the most genuine, lovely, talented men out there. He’s a rock to all of his friends (and especially me). He’d blind his worst enemy with kindness (expect that he has no enemies because he’s the least judgemental person ever). He consistently underplays how exceptionally artistically talented he is. And – don’t tell him this because I like to pretend it’s not true – he’s hilarious.
Sam and I started our wedding vows by declaring that we were coming forward freely and without reservation. And I’d do it again in a heartbeat. I’ve tried to internalise our vows and make them as true to myself as my own heartbeat
“I, Amanda take you, Sam to be my husband.
I will share my life with yours, build our dreams together, support you through times of trouble, and rejoice with you in times of happiness.
I promise to give you respect, love and loyalty through all the trials and triumphs of our lives together. This commitment is made in love, kept in faith, lived in hope, and made new every day of our lives.“
Sam and I will be celebrating on Sunday by going out for a ridiculously exciting meal that we’ve waited ages for a reservation for!
If you want a walk through memory lane with me, or just want to catch up on my wedding posts, you can read them here:
The wedding posts:
Wedding Planning Series:
DIY Save the Dates
Wedding Insecurities: Maybe I’m Not a Glowing Bride?
My Surprise Hen Do
Shopping for an Unusual or Vintage Wedding Dress
Musings on Finding “The One” (Wedding Dress, at least)
Venue Hunting on a Budget
And taking it way Back: